In my heart

Suddenly feel that i have so much thing which is in my head and i always wanna say it our and ask why but i have no one to talk to and ask about..

1. soo yi and keong is officially broke up..sometimes i really cant understand..why a couple which is together for so long can broke up just like this for no reason..?becos of attitude just broke up like that..i guess its not a really good reason.. looking at them like this i thought that if one day i and him like that how??what will i do??he is in my daily routine everyday without miss..i really don't dare to think about it..i don't want this to happen too..
   
2. life is so difficult for me these days..should i work or not to work.?if i work i will get some extra money to spend..not to count on mum as she herself don't really always give me money till i am really broke then i ask from her then only give..whats the point of asking her all the time and she cant give me automatically.??like last 2 weeks dad gave me RM80 and she gave me RM30 total up its just RM110..if u ask me that RM110 its enough for me to spend for 2 weeks or not i would loudly say ITS NOT ENOUGH..!!and now its already the 3rd week!!i am left with about RM15 and the RM15 i took it from neng..besides if i really go to work i can't concentrate in my studies..what should i do now??
3. exams gonna be near soon..2 more weeks to go and i haven get ready yet..dint got that kinda feelings before..even when i am in form 5 although i am not that ready i also can sit for the exams and when the results is out even though i don't get a good result i cant feel anything..but now even a small little test i am really care about it..i don't hope that i can get such a low marks/grades..i can feel guilty,nervous and scared when its near to it..and now the i am having this kinda feelings..but my head just cant work on studies yet..how now??what do i want now??maybe i should start on as fast as i could..there is no more time to waste already..
4. i cant stand her ANYMORE...who??it's his SISTER..aiyoo..i also don't know how to say why i don't like her..i am sick of her..attitude..selfishness..her f**king face that i really cannot tahan her.. i hate her so much....!!!!!she always do till like people kiam her like that..i don't owe u anything ok..??about your stupid car u thought everyone in your family wanna drive your car ar??u are so selfish even your twin sister don't wanna sit in your damn car..thought that when people drive your car they have to pay everything that u want them to do..i know if a person drive your car they should pump petrol for u but not every time right..?every time when we sit your car your petrol is always near to E=EMPTY and we have to pump again and again and again..besides washing car also..cant u just go and wash it yourself instead of asking us to go out and wash your damn car for u every time..don't u know how selfish u are..?u really wanna make your family luan then only can stop wan izzit..?if ever u see it i dont care also..i just wanna express how i fell on your sis right now..i hate her..thats it..!